And Me Makes Three (Chapter 3)

A few months had passed and Carmen and I had been enjoying Gwen being our house guest. We seemed closer. Sex wasn’t all that we had going for us. It was some of the same as before like when we watched TV and movies together, but now we were going out like it was a date night. We would cook and eat breakfast and dinners together. It was as if we worked through all the tension and it was just intimacy.

I knew deep down what was going on. I was in love. Of course I was in love with Carmen, but I now had feelings for Gwen. I liked being around her and spending time with both her and Carmen. I liked the normal stuff like talking politics at dinner and eating toast while watching cartoons in the morning. Gwen is a good friend of mine so we would talk often times about Carmen. With Carmen when we talked Gwen would come up in conversation. It’s hard being the one in the middle. I know how both feel cause they tell me,, but I can’t tell the other without betraying trust. Carmen wants a poly relationship making it official with her dating Gwen, but she is worried about loyalty. Gwen has been known to be a flirt.

Gwen’s really wants to stay with Carmen. I know when she’s committed to something she stays dedicated. I’ve seen in the past how she can be flirtatious, but if it was a serious relationship she is always in it 100% if not always with the best person for her. Where do I fit into all this? I just wanted Gwen to continue to be a part of my life. I enjoy her and her presence. If I never had sex with her again I’d be ok as long as she stayed with us. It had been on my mind and I was finally ready to say something.

One night I prepared dinner for us. Nothing too fancy, I made burgers and fries from scratch. We were going to watch a new movie, but I told them both I wanted to talk so we ate at the table. I reassured both that what I had to say was nothing bad and I’d wait until the food was finished. We made small talk until we had all finished. Gwen served dessert of brownies and ice-cream.

With dessert in front of us I began to speak. “Let me clear the air. I want to know what are we, what are we to each other? Like are we gonna be serious about this? I really like us. It doesn’t have to be about sex only. If I just have sex with Carmen and not you Gwen I’d be fine. I like just being around you two.” I then turned to Gwen and said, “I know I have male parts, but I’m a woman and I have a dick, but you never have to see it. I can just use my hands and mouth and you’ll never have to see it. I’ll just be with Carmen when I want to use it.”

There was a brief awkward silence. It was soon interrupted by a giggle. Carmen then spoke.

“You are such a girl. You over here catching feelings.” She laughed.

“Gayyyyy!” Gwen said jokingly as she laughed.

I was surprised, but at the same time it was kind of appropriate for them. That’s just how they are. I felt a bit embarrassed to be laughed at by them when I was trying to be serious.

“Don’t pout you being a baby.” Carmen said.

“You were going to use the L word too weren’t you?” Added Gwen.

“Lesbian” Replied Carmen.

They both laughed and started eating their dessert. I was a bit shocked that nothing went how I had expected it to. I started to eat as well.

“We’ve talked about this before. Me and Gwen and for now let’s just take it a day at a time.” Carmen said. Afterwards she started normal conversation like nothing had happened. Gwen looked at me and reached out a hand and placed it on my shoulder. She rubbed my back and said, “We care about you. We care about each other. I just don’t think we should rush and label ourselves.”

“I just want us to be a family. I just felt we could make this work. I don’t want to lose this feeling. I don’t want to lose either of you” I said before standing up.

“We aren’t going anywhere. We are working. This works. We don’t need labels.” Carmen said, but it was too late. I heard her as I was already walking away. I went outside to sit on our balcony and grabbed my secret bottle of whisky hidden underneath a wicker chair. I took a few swigs from the bottle. It was cold from the night air, but still burned my throat as I swallowed.

After a few minutes Gwen came outside and sat with me. I offered her a sip from the bottle, but she politely refused. She was more of a vodka girl. I didn’t want to be around anyone at that moment, but she had a way of calming me with her presence. I laid out flat on my back on the balcony and let out a sigh. Gwen came over and kissed me on the lips. I reached up and placed my hand on the back of her head and pulled her face to mine. We kissed again and several times more. Her lips were soft and warm.

“Would you hold me tonight? Be my cuddle buddy.” I said to Gwen.

“Sure. We can cuddle together tonight.” She responded.

“Gwen I really care about you and sometimes I just want to hold you and nothing more. It’s not the alcohol talking I haven’t had enough.” I said.

“I know the feeling. Carmen isn’t as affectionate.”

“Tell me about it.” I said. We both laughed about it.

That night Gwen joined Carmen and I in our bed. Luckily it was a king size and could fit the three of us comfortably. Carmen slept between us. I fell asleep hugging and holding on to Gwen. She was so warm and soft to the touch. It was a level of intimacy I had not felt with her before. I didn’t want to leave her embrace. It was the same as when I would hold Carmen. Like everything in the world was right. Like sunshine and safety. That was what I was trying to hold on to and not lose.

When I woke the next morning Gwen was lying on my chest and Carmen was spooning with her. I wished that we could just stay in bed like that all day. I began to think. Did we need a label? Could we just be together without having to tell everyone we were together? I thought we needed to claim one another, but if we’re together in our feelings and agree to boundaries and just share our lives and love with each other we could continue to work as whatever we were; a relationship that no one wanted to call a relationship. Just three women that love and care about one another.

As much as I wanted to stay with them we all had to get ready to go to work. I took a shower alone and used the time to reflect. I got dressed and left for work. I didn’t eat at home, but grabbed something on my way to the office. Work was the usual uneventful boring same old routine I was actually a bit late getting home. When I did arrive Carmen was making dinner and Gwen was helping.

During dinner Gwen kept giving me looks. It wasn’t like normal. I would catch her stealing glances and she’d turn away when I looked. This went on for much of the night. We all sat and watched a new episode of one of our shows together and she still gave me weird looks during. It wasn’t until after that I realized why.

When it was time to turn in for bed, Gwen came up to me and said. “I get to have you to myself tonight.” I didn’t mind, but it made me sound like a toy. Carmen was still in the living room. She decided to watch a movie conveniently at that moment. Gwen eagerly led me to the bedroom. She didn’t waste time as soon as I entered the room she kissed me. It took me by surprise and I wasn’t able to close the door. She grabbed my shirt and pulled me towards the bed while our lips where still locked. Still kissing she began to undress. I followed her example and began undressing too. We were making out only stopping to pull off shirts. I only left my panties on. I figured Gwen wouldn’t want to see my dick and there was no need for it to be out. She pushed me onto the bed and mounted me. She was completely naked by this point and still wildly kissing me. Lips, cheeks, neck, and chest; she alternated where she pressed her lips. I felt her breast on me chest. They were so soft and the feel of them turned me on even more. I had my hands on her hips, but I moved one to grab her butt and positioned the other to rub her pussy. Gwen was wet. So wet I felt I felt my fingers slip in with all most no resistance.

This went on for a few then Gwen moved down my body and started to take of my panties. I moved back a little and placed my hands over hers in an attempt to stop her. She said, “It’s okay.” I pulled my hands away reluctantly. Gwen continued to pull down my panties. I lifted my body enough to make it easier for her.

I had no idea what she was planning to do. I was tucked but not taped down since I wore a dress and didn't need the extra support. I was relieved to have my panties off. They were restricting my erection and it was a bit painful having my dick trying to straighten out with nowhere to go. Now that it was unrestrained it quickly flipped up enjoying the new found freedom. Gwen took a moment to look it over, measuring first with her eyes then with her hands.

“It's bigger then I thought.” She said. “And it's warm and hard. It's so weird. What's it feel like? To have one?” I had answered this question many times before in many different ways. I told her. “Like a big finger but lower and more sensitive. Or if your clit was this size I'm sure it'd feel the same.” Gwen seemed satisfied enough with that answer. She ran her fingers along the shaft and felt around the head.

“This part is softer” she said.

“That's the most sensitive part.” I responded.

She was now done asking questions and investigating. Gwen said “Stay there.” and left the room. She came back with a bottle of lube and put some on her hands. I sat up to see what she was doing. “Lay back down.” She said. I complied and she sat on top of me with her back to me and her pelvis on mine. She was sitting right at the base of hard cock with it pressed against her crotch and stomach. I knew now what she was doing. She had been taking with Carmen and was told about something we do every once in a while.

Gwen started stroking my dick from base to tip. I would have been embarrassed that she knew about this, but it felt too good for me to care. “It really does look like I have a dick too.” She said. Gwen continued jacking me off grinding her pussy against me as she did. I could feel her moist pussy slide against me with each rocking motion. She then leaned back and started rubbing her pussy against my dick pushing it against her with one hand and supporting herself with the other. I felt like cumming then she stopped. I was thankful because I want ready just yet. Gwen flipped over and pushed my cock against my stomach and sat down on it. She began grinding against my hard cock. She was so wet and I loved the feeling against my dick. She let out the cutest little moans that excited me even more.

Her grinding became more vigorous. She alternated between quickly grinding and slowly sliding back and forth. On one slow stroke she leaned forward pressing her breasts to mine and kissing me. She went up a bit too far and off my dick. When she moved back I felt my dick enter her. She let out the most beautiful moan I grabbed her hips to try and pull her off, but she moved my arms and pinned them. She continued moving back until she couldn't anymore. After that one thrust she got up and turned around again to be in the original position with her back facing me.

“I want to see you cum.” She said and began to stroke my dick again. Gwen began to move her hips back and forth with each stroke mimicking the rhythm of her hand.

I was close to cumming. Gwen sped up her stroking and I couldn’t take it anymore. My body tensed up and there was no holding back. I came hard. As I did she stopped stroking. My dick twitched in her hand with each pump. I knew her hands were covered but when she got up and turned around she had some of my cum on her stomach too. I grabbed my shirt off the floor and quickly tried to help her clean herself up. I after cleaning up and dirtying my shirt I asked her if she wanted me to help her cum. I asked Gwen to lie on her back. I started rubbing her pussy and licking her nipples. She was still wet and I was able to work my fingers in easily.

I knew I was in the right spot when I could hear her breathing change a she started her little moans. I switched to two fingers and moved up to kiss her. We made out as I fingered her. She was felling on her own breast and nipples. The moment she came she stop kissing me and let out a grunt and moan. We laid there together resting. After sometime we got cleaned up Carmen and Gwen took a shower together I went in after. That night we slept well. Again we three were in the same bed with me in the middle. I kissed Gwen on the cheek goodnight and said “Thank you, I had fun.” I turned to Carmen and kissed her and told her thank you as well. That night my thoughts were on how much I loved being there with the two of them and with that I went to sleep.